The beginning

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Over the last few months I've found my brain to be a center of chaos with several thoughts zooming through my neural highways simultaneously. Some come and stick around with a level of obsession; some pass by so quickly that I can barely recognize them. I have to stop and think "I just had an interesting thought, let me spend a moment trying to hold on to it so that I can remember what it was." So odd.

To try and make sense of the brain chaos, I began writing. Short pieces on whatever was on my mind, largely unfiltered. This lead to lots of ramblings that I usually didn't follow up on or go back to read. I didn't think much of it.

A few days ago I had a short interaction with @visakanv on Twitter. 


I realized that this attempt at writing down what I was thinking was an attempt at making precise the images in my head. It wasn't just about putting them on paper (or on a screen), it was about being able to sharpen the blur of my mind into some sort of coherence.

But I found myself hesitant to do it too often. For one, it requires discipline. Another - it left me vulnerable to the fact that what I was writing could be wrong, or worse - inconsequential; a thought that made my highly insecure.

I've seen myself do this before. I genuinely enjoy the process of writing, but the fear of my words letting me down ends up with me either avoiding the task entirely, or being diverted by fonts and layouts and widgets and what not - things that I can control more than the words. I either don't write consistently or well enough, and the disappointment from the process ends up making me quit entirely.

So I'm starting this blog as a place where I can write what I want, when I want, without the need to be consistent or coherent. The topics will vary. The posts may or may not come. There probably won't be much editing.

In a world where building your own brand and controlling how you are perceived is so important, this is my haven. 


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